Blogging again........another step...
So what is it that has got me blogging again? Encouragement from my SO , certainly, but also a sense that there is 'worth' in my daily experiences and the need to record it for my future recollection.
The problem I have with writing is that I think it will take too long to type.. so I defer it until I have more time.. and don't. Prevarication, the thief of time. Yet my SO says I just need 30 minutes and I have to agree it's worth a try.
The 'worth' in my blog is principally for my own benefit, of course, yet I hope it's expression will sometimes yield helpful comments, encouragement or simply 'been there, got the badge, it's OK'
Since my last blog entries in 2014, so much has happened ... success, failure, growth, insight, stress, anxiety and confusion in jobs and daily life, generally. Amidst this, my singing has happily flourished and the support of my immediate family has kept me going, together with one or two friends.
Was I just getting 'past it', clunking a bit like an old engine gearbox with a cog loose and no chance of repair or an oil change? [I once owned an old Land Rover 2a, so I speak with some experience... ]
I certainly didn't think I was coping better as the years passed and self worth [apart, curiously, from singing which continued to satisfy] was wasting away. But I kept going, as I always had, doing what I thought was right. Some of it may reappear in later post entries, if it seems right and relevant, yet this isn't meant to be an historical account.
Jobs came and went, I entered singing competitions as a soloist, sang in opera and workshops and various choirs of many different standards and expectations, suffering the grind of accountancy to earn some money and largely delighting in the singing.
I lost 2 stone through Slimming World, took up running and gym and thought a balance in life could be found.... if only the elusive 'right' job would come along.
I thought it had, last summer...
Then my father died, in his 90's and everything changed...
My precarious life balance suddenly began to wobble....and I didn't realise it was...
My SO was right.. again... 30 minutes, or so, of my time was well spent... I'll be back!
The problem I have with writing is that I think it will take too long to type.. so I defer it until I have more time.. and don't. Prevarication, the thief of time. Yet my SO says I just need 30 minutes and I have to agree it's worth a try.
The 'worth' in my blog is principally for my own benefit, of course, yet I hope it's expression will sometimes yield helpful comments, encouragement or simply 'been there, got the badge, it's OK'
Since my last blog entries in 2014, so much has happened ... success, failure, growth, insight, stress, anxiety and confusion in jobs and daily life, generally. Amidst this, my singing has happily flourished and the support of my immediate family has kept me going, together with one or two friends.
Was I just getting 'past it', clunking a bit like an old engine gearbox with a cog loose and no chance of repair or an oil change? [I once owned an old Land Rover 2a, so I speak with some experience... ]
I certainly didn't think I was coping better as the years passed and self worth [apart, curiously, from singing which continued to satisfy] was wasting away. But I kept going, as I always had, doing what I thought was right. Some of it may reappear in later post entries, if it seems right and relevant, yet this isn't meant to be an historical account.
Jobs came and went, I entered singing competitions as a soloist, sang in opera and workshops and various choirs of many different standards and expectations, suffering the grind of accountancy to earn some money and largely delighting in the singing.
I lost 2 stone through Slimming World, took up running and gym and thought a balance in life could be found.... if only the elusive 'right' job would come along.
I thought it had, last summer...
Then my father died, in his 90's and everything changed...
My precarious life balance suddenly began to wobble....and I didn't realise it was...
My SO was right.. again... 30 minutes, or so, of my time was well spent... I'll be back!
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